If's n But's

Just thinking of life as such now...things always seem to happen out of the blue. One can never predict whats going to happen the next moment..it can be anything varying from slippin on a banana peel n cracking ur bones to being made the prime minister of the biggest/ largest democratic country in the world.
Is there any way of knowing what is going to happen to each one of us in the future...it would be fun to know all such things as to whether u would get admission into an IIM (for all the MBA / CAT aspirants)..whether there is a scope for promotion...(for all who seems to love their jobs)...or as to whether u would be in a totally different field..enjoying your work more than ever before..(for all those never-satisfied-guys like myself??)...
Well there are 2 aspects to this whole ideology of seeing the future...i mean..if i knew that 2 years down the lane, i am in a different company doing a better job / enjoyin my work/ earning more...i would obviously loose my interest in doing my present work...y should u slog ur ass off and do all this when u know tat down the lane u r gonna be in a better position.....right?? the argument seems pretty valid to me.. but then think of it in this way...the future u saw may come true only if you continue to work the way u are working right now..? now this looks more or less like printing on one side of a paper "The statement on the other side is TRUE" and on the other side you print "The statement on the other side is FALSE"...?? cool eh??
I for one firmly believe that my actions of today will speak for me tomorrow...what i do today...will have an impact on my life sometime down the lane...it may not be very evident or explicit but then down the lane, you look back at the string of events leading up to the situation, you will realise that it was coz u said a "yes" at some moment (for eg.) that you are in the postion that you are today...and if you had said a "no" to the same situation, for all you know you might not have been in this situation today - be it good or bad...!!
This infact reinstates the theory ..."you are the decider of your own future..of your own fate".......
Life is full of "ifs" n "buts" (mind u single "t" only;-))...and it is the outcome of this "if" loop which decides the output/ solution...in this case your life...
hmmm...the chain of thoughts have absolutely no connectivity..and i have wandered away from what i started i guess...but then its fun just putting into words watever goes thru ur mind...let the mind do the talking...dont think twice..who knows..the time i am spending putting these thoughts down may in some way affect my future....(crossed-fingers..hoping its for the good)...as i continue on my rambling...i am reminded of an eminent personality's words which said something like - Never love your company so much that you feel upset when you are asked to leave , for the company may not be loving u so much....
lets extrapolate this a bit further ...Should we love one person so much so that his/ her loss can affect us real bad?? Loss can be a physical distance...or the person being dead or anything for that matter...does one person alone deserve all the love that you have in ur heart...Should a husband love his wife so much so that a day without her and he would go insane...n vice versa??? should a kid love his mother so much (rare possibility) or should a mother love her kid so much so that a day without her kid n she feels completely incomplete (hmmm...is that an oxymoron now "completely incomplete"?)
How does one know that the person whom he/she loves loves him/ her back as much...
taking my own case...i would be broken if i came to know that any person whom i respected/ loved a lot does not love/ respect me so much..!!i mean..it may look like i am imposing myself onto others...it aint necessary tat everyone be the same as you are...(if that was the case..then the world would have been such a peaceful place to live in)..but is it expecting too much...am i asking for too much?? I have been broken many a times..(often came as a shock to me) when out of the blue, one fine day..i come to know that the person i love/adore/ admire n what not...does not like me...rather hates me...and whatever he/ she was showing...was all farce............
I have had it plenty n enough...dont want anymore of it... I Have had my share of agonies...and i pray all those ppl who are reading this dont go thru what all i have gone thru in the past and have a pleasant...joyful...love filled life..!!
God bless you all!!