Well...Came to Edinburgh in high hopes of seeing gorgeous looking babes with amazing figures n even better looking legs n what not...was under the impression that all babes (??) here would be in mini / micro-minis and anything shorter than that, if it existed...!!
But what a surprise to see that 90% of the females here wear pants n formal suitings..and the only ones that are commonly seen in such skimpy dresses (in the pubs mainly) are the English-desis (Indian / Pak babes who have been born n brought up here) and most of them would have this air about them that you would not even feel like giving them a second glance...!!And the babes here are all the sweet kinds and so far i have seen - very few with s*xy figures. And this minority group of "babes" can not be approached..not when they have some 6' guarding them, supposedly their boyfriend rather than her body guard...ahhhhh...Dont stand a chance man in this place. Back in college, used to have this feeling that "patafying" a foreigner is child's play...well...it may be easy ..dont know..but then therez always a chance of a broken nose!! And why risk such things when you know you can sit back and enjoy life just by looking at them...sorry..let me rephrase...glancing at them..!!
Here if you stare at a girl..for all you know, the next moment you would be hearing abuses swung at you from all directions..not by anyone else but by the same girl and her friends...damn!!!
I have got fed up of staring at girls (ogling is a better term i guess)...have lost the enthu after leaving college!!I guess i can safely say i have settled down finally..
Maybe all this has to do with maturity or something of the sorts...or maybe its coz when u have had plenty n plenty of a particular dish, you tend to get fed up of it...
I think in my case it is the latter scenario combined a bit with the former one..You cannot deny the fact that all of us are maturing and all the eve-teasing and whatever used to be done in college/ school..would look really uncouth now..!!We have grown old??? Things have started taking a different perspective...As the age factor creeps in, all of us ( i guess..atleast most)stop looking at girls as mere objects of pleasure :P..the female community starts getting more respect from us..
Think of it...How many of us would actually tease / abuse a girl whom we used to abuse/ tease in college? worse comes to worst we would ignore her right??
Shit man! i am stopping this blog right now...
Vithal dude, sorry i diverged from what you asked me;-) The excitement has died down...I aint any more what I was;-)he hee....
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
a passing thought.........................................
"Love is an irresistable desire to be desired irresistably"
Monday, October 04, 2004
My Astrological readings
he he...check the following out. In college, one of those days when i was absolutely jobless, i subscribed to this astrology site of indiatimes - free sampling for 1 week or something of the sorts and i used to get daily mails regarding how my day was supposed to be like ...?????
And once the free time was over, i stopped checking it. Just couple of days back, was cleaning up my inbox and saw the following in the junk mails section. Found it pretty interesting so much so that i almost subscribed to the astrologer..but then decided i would not...was not sure of the authenticity of the same...though many of the things said about me in the following is quite true;-):-)))
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I have come to realize that you do not use the incredible potential which you have inside of you to the fullest and certain of your considerable capacities are completely unused. This is a real shame as I now know that you are someone very
different and that you have immense qualities ! wh! ich are simply not exploited. Your potential is stifled and has been for quite some time now and I think that this is a real waste. In the rest of this letter I am going to give you a precise
example to show you in which situation you are at the moment.
I fully understand how you feel at this time, I know who you are, what you are feeling and how you are living. As way of proof, here are certain aspects of your personality which you are no doubt already aware of but which I wish to you to demonstrate to you just how well I know you: This is what I can sense about you Vineesh. The first point is that, and this is why it will be difficult to convince you about all of this, you are a person with fresh an innovative ideas and are not willing to settle for what others tell you. You have to see things for yourself and if you d! on! 't like what you see or what you hear you will change it. As a matter of fact recently you have been energized by thoughts of exciting changes but have not acted due to fear. You are terrified of failing and making the wrong choice and I think that this stems from the fact that although you don't always consciously admit this but deep down inside you need the respect and admiration of others. I can even say that without a doubt, Vineesh, you are your own strongest critic. You have a tenancy to be too hard on yourself. Your unique perspective in life has been forged from the school of hard knocks,and you know deep down inside that you are better for having gone through what you have endured. I am getting the distinct sense that you are street smart and you value this ability much more than classroom smarts that others may have. I can see that the experiences you had in life have made you a bit more perspective than most . You are wise beyond your years in many ways. This has ! be! en noticed by your family and friends as those who are closest to you say that you are a very fair person and some seek your counsel because of this. Vineesh it's very clear that you are a person of strong moral character and you are trustworthy to a fault. You have actually been in a situation or two because you were perhaps a bit too trusting. I would like to say that I really appreciate your relationship with other people and I have also noticed that you have a certain paradox within you. I will now give you a couple of examples of this paradox. Vineesh, you are an unusually generous person, with the genuine desire to help others, but you also have a bit selfish side. It's this taking care of yourself that allows you to better take care of others. I can also perceive another paradox Vineesh. You believe that telling a little white lie can sometimes be necessary and you don't always tell the truth, mostly because you don't want to hurt the other person's feelings. but at t! he! same time, you have very strong values and definite sense of right and wrong. In this day of questionable characters, you feel grounded by your strong values. I could speak about you for hours Vineesh but what you must retain from all of this is that you have an enormous amount of latent potential which you sometimes come close to realizing as you are often frustrated with the fact that others don't always recognize this or appreciate what you could offer. I can tell you that there is a very strong aura around you and an energy that is truly powerful. I am sensing vibrations from you much more intense than those I experience with most clients. Your intuition and your power may be one reason why you are drawn to astrology readings and psychic experiences. Finally I would like to conclude with another point. You know what you have inside of you and you have known for some time now that you have been given certain talents.... very special talents unique only to you. and while ! yo! u have known of these abilities , you haven't fully acted on them now, have you ? I hope that these few lines have convinced you Vineesh that I strongly perceive who you are and what you are feeling. You already know most of what I have written about however you may not realize to what extent the potential within you is really powerful and here is an example which could help to illustrate what I am trying to tell you. Imagine a person who has never known any modern technology (for example someone living in the heart of a dense jungle). One day this person is given a radio tuned in to a very precise radio station and he finds it suddenly extraordinary to be able to listen to music through what is essentially a small box. He is told that to listen to this music he need only press the 'on' button without having to do anything else to listen to this music. This person thinks this radio is a wonderful invention and then spends a number of years listening to this radio and to the ! sa! me program as the radio stays on the same station all of the time. And then one day someone else comes along and shows him that there are a multitude of other stations and frequencies to listen to with many other programs that can be as interesting as the first.... You are in the position of this person Vineesh and your potential can be compared to this radio. Your potential is not yet fully exploited and you are not yet aware of certain of your hidden talents. I find myself in the place of the person who's duty is to show you exactly how you can tune in to these new frequencies. This is a metaphorical example but it demonstrates clearly the situation in which you find yourself at this time. Considering the important information which I have discovered about you Vineesh, I know that it is possible to help you through this key moment in your life and I also know that this change can be considered as a rebirth of sorts as you are not really who you thought you were - you are in fact much much more than this and you need to want to make this change happen with all of your heart and soul.
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HOWZATT!!!??:-)
And once the free time was over, i stopped checking it. Just couple of days back, was cleaning up my inbox and saw the following in the junk mails section. Found it pretty interesting so much so that i almost subscribed to the astrologer..but then decided i would not...was not sure of the authenticity of the same...though many of the things said about me in the following is quite true;-):-)))
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I have come to realize that you do not use the incredible potential which you have inside of you to the fullest and certain of your considerable capacities are completely unused. This is a real shame as I now know that you are someone very
different and that you have immense qualities ! wh! ich are simply not exploited. Your potential is stifled and has been for quite some time now and I think that this is a real waste. In the rest of this letter I am going to give you a precise
example to show you in which situation you are at the moment.
I fully understand how you feel at this time, I know who you are, what you are feeling and how you are living. As way of proof, here are certain aspects of your personality which you are no doubt already aware of but which I wish to you to demonstrate to you just how well I know you: This is what I can sense about you Vineesh. The first point is that, and this is why it will be difficult to convince you about all of this, you are a person with fresh an innovative ideas and are not willing to settle for what others tell you. You have to see things for yourself and if you d! on! 't like what you see or what you hear you will change it. As a matter of fact recently you have been energized by thoughts of exciting changes but have not acted due to fear. You are terrified of failing and making the wrong choice and I think that this stems from the fact that although you don't always consciously admit this but deep down inside you need the respect and admiration of others. I can even say that without a doubt, Vineesh, you are your own strongest critic. You have a tenancy to be too hard on yourself. Your unique perspective in life has been forged from the school of hard knocks,and you know deep down inside that you are better for having gone through what you have endured. I am getting the distinct sense that you are street smart and you value this ability much more than classroom smarts that others may have. I can see that the experiences you had in life have made you a bit more perspective than most . You are wise beyond your years in many ways. This has ! be! en noticed by your family and friends as those who are closest to you say that you are a very fair person and some seek your counsel because of this. Vineesh it's very clear that you are a person of strong moral character and you are trustworthy to a fault. You have actually been in a situation or two because you were perhaps a bit too trusting. I would like to say that I really appreciate your relationship with other people and I have also noticed that you have a certain paradox within you. I will now give you a couple of examples of this paradox. Vineesh, you are an unusually generous person, with the genuine desire to help others, but you also have a bit selfish side. It's this taking care of yourself that allows you to better take care of others. I can also perceive another paradox Vineesh. You believe that telling a little white lie can sometimes be necessary and you don't always tell the truth, mostly because you don't want to hurt the other person's feelings. but at t! he! same time, you have very strong values and definite sense of right and wrong. In this day of questionable characters, you feel grounded by your strong values. I could speak about you for hours Vineesh but what you must retain from all of this is that you have an enormous amount of latent potential which you sometimes come close to realizing as you are often frustrated with the fact that others don't always recognize this or appreciate what you could offer. I can tell you that there is a very strong aura around you and an energy that is truly powerful. I am sensing vibrations from you much more intense than those I experience with most clients. Your intuition and your power may be one reason why you are drawn to astrology readings and psychic experiences. Finally I would like to conclude with another point. You know what you have inside of you and you have known for some time now that you have been given certain talents.... very special talents unique only to you. and while ! yo! u have known of these abilities , you haven't fully acted on them now, have you ? I hope that these few lines have convinced you Vineesh that I strongly perceive who you are and what you are feeling. You already know most of what I have written about however you may not realize to what extent the potential within you is really powerful and here is an example which could help to illustrate what I am trying to tell you. Imagine a person who has never known any modern technology (for example someone living in the heart of a dense jungle). One day this person is given a radio tuned in to a very precise radio station and he finds it suddenly extraordinary to be able to listen to music through what is essentially a small box. He is told that to listen to this music he need only press the 'on' button without having to do anything else to listen to this music. This person thinks this radio is a wonderful invention and then spends a number of years listening to this radio and to the ! sa! me program as the radio stays on the same station all of the time. And then one day someone else comes along and shows him that there are a multitude of other stations and frequencies to listen to with many other programs that can be as interesting as the first.... You are in the position of this person Vineesh and your potential can be compared to this radio. Your potential is not yet fully exploited and you are not yet aware of certain of your hidden talents. I find myself in the place of the person who's duty is to show you exactly how you can tune in to these new frequencies. This is a metaphorical example but it demonstrates clearly the situation in which you find yourself at this time. Considering the important information which I have discovered about you Vineesh, I know that it is possible to help you through this key moment in your life and I also know that this change can be considered as a rebirth of sorts as you are not really who you thought you were - you are in fact much much more than this and you need to want to make this change happen with all of your heart and soul.
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HOWZATT!!!??:-)
If's n But's...continued
From the responses i got for the last post, all seem to be saying the same thing to me...Dont give out the whole of your heart to one person alone...
A junior of mine (Kicha) commented to me..sayin...Life is like a Stock Market..!!You invest high in just one, the risk of loosing it is extremely high, but then the returns/ gains are also high...So one should believe in diversification and invest in more than one and play the game of life according to ur market value..!!
Amazing right? All of a sudden the "bears n bulls" of stock market started makin sense to me. I guess it is the same, when you try relating things to your life, they start making more of sense.........
Well ...dont know if taking a couple of swigs of beer/ 7. something shots of tequila will help...coz the possiblity of thinking more on the same lines and going deeper into the prob is higher after getting drunk, i guess. After drinking, the whole world shrinks and you feel lots of things running inside your brain..and then a lot of issues which would never have made sense start getting clear in your head..and thus u tend to think more...and come out with more creative n better ideas after getting drunk...and one thing i dont want to think of in such a situation is about LIFE!!No way am i going into a rewind mode and then PLAY everything all over again in my mind...aint crazy..!!so dudes...beer/ tequila aint the solution...
that brings me to ask the question...are all of us happy at any point in our life...why is it that humans (atleast the few i know inclusive of me) are never happy with what they have? When you finish your 12th grade, everyone wants to get into an IIT / REC (NIT) and that is the biggest tension..!!And once you are thru into the reputed institutions...the tensions just increase..one is never at ease..you have the cycle tests (whoever derived this name, should be given an award...the tests just keep cycling n coming back over n over again..you never seem to get rid of it..ever..till u pass out) and then the sem exams..and what not...once into the final yr..everyone wants a job...it does not matter what u did 4 yrs in your college...ultimately you just need a god damn job...and what all lies does one fabricate for the same...!!and there are a few ppl who are trained to teach others to lie/ talk effectively/ look smart n ultimately get thru the iview as well - CIC reps..i was a part of this team as well..(no offence to any CIC rep here..:-))and once you get a job...the World is yours..atleast for the next couple of weeks...
and then you done with college and you step into the corporate world...and shit!! you realise you are in hell!!what seemed so cool n stylish n amazing on the projector screen of your college abt the life in each software campus ..all bollocks..absolute crap..!!the only thing thats true in all these presentations is the infrastructure and nothing else...All dreams of being the one of the cool dudes in your cool company..shattered...your bubble burst, you look ahead...you think of job switches...higher studies..(CAT/ GMAT/ GRE etc), onsite opportunities...and what not...!!Some are successful...while others stay on cribbing every other day about their colleagues, PM's, the company, the corporate system, the project he is involved in and what not!!!!!!!!
Then slowly the marriage comes up...Some are lucky to get the bride of their dreams..while few remaining others just nod to their dad n mom saying "Yes, i agree" over a cup of tea n pastries in their to-be-in-law's house...once this phase is over...then there are tensions of wife / stayin together/ wife working/ children / their future....and what not..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Few others have the responsiblity of getting their sisters (elder / youger) married off into a good family...and God forbid..anything screws up there...then you are the one to be blamed..after all, didnt you find the groom...weren't you supposed to do the checking on the groom n his family...!?? Is the brother the only one responsible for his sister's marriage...dont the parents/relatives have any responsibility???
When will one have the peace of mind that he is so desparately yearning for? When will he lead life for himself and not for his parents/ siblings / wife / children and whoever else that is there in this list?
When will we - each one of us - ever attain a level of satisfaction...when we can boldly say.."I AM HAPPY...I AM SATISFIED..I NEED NO MORE IN LIFE AND HAPPY WITH WHATEVER I HAVE"..and stick on to this statement for atleast 6 months at a stretch. Myself have made this statement humpty number of times...but then the next moment, prob the next day, i reverse my thoughts and start the crib process.............
I guess...this is a never ending cycle...The grass is greener on the other side ALWAYS...Till the day u die...you will keep seeing greener pastures...and would be wanting to be there than where u are currently...We may not agree when someone says "You are greedy"...but think of it...i feel all of us are...wanting more everyday..!!!!!!!!!!
ps. I need a break...i guess i am thinking too much..!:-)
No offence to anyone in the above article. Just a chain of thoughts:-) Peace!!!!!!!
A junior of mine (Kicha) commented to me..sayin...Life is like a Stock Market..!!You invest high in just one, the risk of loosing it is extremely high, but then the returns/ gains are also high...So one should believe in diversification and invest in more than one and play the game of life according to ur market value..!!
Amazing right? All of a sudden the "bears n bulls" of stock market started makin sense to me. I guess it is the same, when you try relating things to your life, they start making more of sense.........
Well ...dont know if taking a couple of swigs of beer/ 7. something shots of tequila will help...coz the possiblity of thinking more on the same lines and going deeper into the prob is higher after getting drunk, i guess. After drinking, the whole world shrinks and you feel lots of things running inside your brain..and then a lot of issues which would never have made sense start getting clear in your head..and thus u tend to think more...and come out with more creative n better ideas after getting drunk...and one thing i dont want to think of in such a situation is about LIFE!!No way am i going into a rewind mode and then PLAY everything all over again in my mind...aint crazy..!!so dudes...beer/ tequila aint the solution...
that brings me to ask the question...are all of us happy at any point in our life...why is it that humans (atleast the few i know inclusive of me) are never happy with what they have? When you finish your 12th grade, everyone wants to get into an IIT / REC (NIT) and that is the biggest tension..!!And once you are thru into the reputed institutions...the tensions just increase..one is never at ease..you have the cycle tests (whoever derived this name, should be given an award...the tests just keep cycling n coming back over n over again..you never seem to get rid of it..ever..till u pass out) and then the sem exams..and what not...once into the final yr..everyone wants a job...it does not matter what u did 4 yrs in your college...ultimately you just need a god damn job...and what all lies does one fabricate for the same...!!and there are a few ppl who are trained to teach others to lie/ talk effectively/ look smart n ultimately get thru the iview as well - CIC reps..i was a part of this team as well..(no offence to any CIC rep here..:-))and once you get a job...the World is yours..atleast for the next couple of weeks...
and then you done with college and you step into the corporate world...and shit!! you realise you are in hell!!what seemed so cool n stylish n amazing on the projector screen of your college abt the life in each software campus ..all bollocks..absolute crap..!!the only thing thats true in all these presentations is the infrastructure and nothing else...All dreams of being the one of the cool dudes in your cool company..shattered...your bubble burst, you look ahead...you think of job switches...higher studies..(CAT/ GMAT/ GRE etc), onsite opportunities...and what not...!!Some are successful...while others stay on cribbing every other day about their colleagues, PM's, the company, the corporate system, the project he is involved in and what not!!!!!!!!
Then slowly the marriage comes up...Some are lucky to get the bride of their dreams..while few remaining others just nod to their dad n mom saying "Yes, i agree" over a cup of tea n pastries in their to-be-in-law's house...once this phase is over...then there are tensions of wife / stayin together/ wife working/ children / their future....and what not..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Few others have the responsiblity of getting their sisters (elder / youger) married off into a good family...and God forbid..anything screws up there...then you are the one to be blamed..after all, didnt you find the groom...weren't you supposed to do the checking on the groom n his family...!?? Is the brother the only one responsible for his sister's marriage...dont the parents/relatives have any responsibility???
When will one have the peace of mind that he is so desparately yearning for? When will he lead life for himself and not for his parents/ siblings / wife / children and whoever else that is there in this list?
When will we - each one of us - ever attain a level of satisfaction...when we can boldly say.."I AM HAPPY...I AM SATISFIED..I NEED NO MORE IN LIFE AND HAPPY WITH WHATEVER I HAVE"..and stick on to this statement for atleast 6 months at a stretch. Myself have made this statement humpty number of times...but then the next moment, prob the next day, i reverse my thoughts and start the crib process.............
I guess...this is a never ending cycle...The grass is greener on the other side ALWAYS...Till the day u die...you will keep seeing greener pastures...and would be wanting to be there than where u are currently...We may not agree when someone says "You are greedy"...but think of it...i feel all of us are...wanting more everyday..!!!!!!!!!!
ps. I need a break...i guess i am thinking too much..!:-)
No offence to anyone in the above article. Just a chain of thoughts:-) Peace!!!!!!!
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