Monday, October 04, 2004

If's n But's...continued

From the responses i got for the last post, all seem to be saying the same thing to me...Dont give out the whole of your heart to one person alone...
A junior of mine (Kicha) commented to me..sayin...Life is like a Stock Market..!!You invest high in just one, the risk of loosing it is extremely high, but then the returns/ gains are also high...So one should believe in diversification and invest in more than one and play the game of life according to ur market value..!!
Amazing right? All of a sudden the "bears n bulls" of stock market started makin sense to me. I guess it is the same, when you try relating things to your life, they start making more of sense.........
Well ...dont know if taking a couple of swigs of beer/ 7. something shots of tequila will help...coz the possiblity of thinking more on the same lines and going deeper into the prob is higher after getting drunk, i guess. After drinking, the whole world shrinks and you feel lots of things running inside your brain..and then a lot of issues which would never have made sense start getting clear in your head..and thus u tend to think more...and come out with more creative n better ideas after getting drunk...and one thing i dont want to think of in such a situation is about LIFE!!No way am i going into a rewind mode and then PLAY everything all over again in my mind...aint crazy..!!so dudes...beer/ tequila aint the solution...
that brings me to ask the question...are all of us happy at any point in our life...why is it that humans (atleast the few i know inclusive of me) are never happy with what they have? When you finish your 12th grade, everyone wants to get into an IIT / REC (NIT) and that is the biggest tension..!!And once you are thru into the reputed institutions...the tensions just increase..one is never at ease..you have the cycle tests (whoever derived this name, should be given an award...the tests just keep cycling n coming back over n over again..you never seem to get rid of it..ever..till u pass out) and then the sem exams..and what not...once into the final yr..everyone wants a job...it does not matter what u did 4 yrs in your college...ultimately you just need a god damn job...and what all lies does one fabricate for the same...!!and there are a few ppl who are trained to teach others to lie/ talk effectively/ look smart n ultimately get thru the iview as well - CIC reps..i was a part of this team as well..(no offence to any CIC rep here..:-))and once you get a job...the World is yours..atleast for the next couple of weeks...
and then you done with college and you step into the corporate world...and shit!! you realise you are in hell!!what seemed so cool n stylish n amazing on the projector screen of your college abt the life in each software campus ..all bollocks..absolute crap..!!the only thing thats true in all these presentations is the infrastructure and nothing else...All dreams of being the one of the cool dudes in your cool company..shattered...your bubble burst, you look ahead...you think of job switches...higher studies..(CAT/ GMAT/ GRE etc), onsite opportunities...and what not...!!Some are successful...while others stay on cribbing every other day about their colleagues, PM's, the company, the corporate system, the project he is involved in and what not!!!!!!!!
Then slowly the marriage comes up...Some are lucky to get the bride of their dreams..while few remaining others just nod to their dad n mom saying "Yes, i agree" over a cup of tea n pastries in their to-be-in-law's house...once this phase is over...then there are tensions of wife / stayin together/ wife working/ children / their future....and what not..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Few others have the responsiblity of getting their sisters (elder / youger) married off into a good family...and God forbid..anything screws up there...then you are the one to be blamed..after all, didnt you find the groom...weren't you supposed to do the checking on the groom n his family...!?? Is the brother the only one responsible for his sister's marriage...dont the parents/relatives have any responsibility???
When will one have the peace of mind that he is so desparately yearning for? When will he lead life for himself and not for his parents/ siblings / wife / children and whoever else that is there in this list?
When will we - each one of us - ever attain a level of satisfaction...when we can boldly say.."I AM HAPPY...I AM SATISFIED..I NEED NO MORE IN LIFE AND HAPPY WITH WHATEVER I HAVE"..and stick on to this statement for atleast 6 months at a stretch. Myself have made this statement humpty number of times...but then the next moment, prob the next day, i reverse my thoughts and start the crib process.............
I guess...this is a never ending cycle...The grass is greener on the other side ALWAYS...Till the day u die...you will keep seeing greener pastures...and would be wanting to be there than where u are currently...We may not agree when someone says "You are greedy"...but think of it...i feel all of us are...wanting more everyday..!!!!!!!!!!
ps. I need a break...i guess i am thinking too much..!:-)
No offence to anyone in the above article. Just a chain of thoughts:-) Peace!!!!!!!

5 comments:

Neo said...

kicha's comments:
Somebody's been doing a lot of thinking lately! Look who's on fire! OWWW! I heard this somewhere... that the bad exists so that the good exists! or else if only good does, what is it that makes it good! Funny but really interesting! Everything's relative!
If everything was nice and cosy! soon that'd be also uncomfortable! so those moments exist to do the dirty work of making those nice moments nice! hehehe... And the best way to avoid the greener pastures on the other side... This too I heard somewhere.. is to extrapolate yourself to that position and start cribbing and seeing greener pastures elsewhere.. and repeating the process till you find the ultimate.. and the result is that you'd save yourself a life of cribbing by finishing it off at one go! What crazy things people think of man!

Aslan said...

y can't the bugger comment himself! i know he has a blogger profile. ass!! well dude, i think u answered ur own q. by starting off from 12th.. the time when u are completely satisfied is ur childhood. thats when u have everythin u want n' want no more! at least i wuz like that!!

i think its highly subjective on what ur desires are. if they are material [read more money], then ur sealed never will be happy. i wuzn't tensed abt my future when i wuz in 12th. somehow knew that i'd get into a good college or that somethin good wud come my way anyway. the unhappiness started only from there!!

ragging! attendance! cycle tests! as u said. but again, i think i wuz much happier than others. as kicha said, its relative. noone can be perfectly happy. but being happier than others gives u a good feeling. thats what i label happiness.. havin fun. doin what u want.

thats why i didn't study as much as i shud have. it all comes back to u tho'. only if u take load later. i wuz unhappy cuz of suppleez.. but other ppl began to get tense when others were gettin placed. i wondered what wuz wrong with them.. it didn't affect me in the least.

i knew i'd get a job sooner or later.. or else somethin good wud come my way anyway! n' yeah it happened.. ppl who got all the first jobs weren't the happiest once they joined work. u might call it sadistic, but i wuz happy i wuz doin much better work than they were. but i had another tension.. clearin my arrears!

my school-dayz' super-happiness returned the day the supplee results came. n' yes, i've been happy for 6 months afterward.. :) lately, i've been a li'l pissed off with the job. so i guess my happy states are more often n' longer than others'.. n' i shud be happy for that! right?! ;)

cool..! zyaada load math lene ka.. arre cool kaal jeene ka.. n' be confident always that somethin good wil come ur way. mebbe its my fate, that i'll always be happy [happier than others- my definition]. mebbe its 'cuz i'm such a good boy. GOK. yeah, GOK. c'est la vie..

noone is perfectly happy unless he owns a McLarenF1 or a Ferrari Enzo or has Shania Twain for a wife, unless she has a diamond necklace, Brad Pitt for a hubby, or whatever-other-crazy-things-gals-want!!

Anonymous said...

Beer Beer and more Beer ..
who wants the stock markets and other shit .. why the hell do you bother to invest da ..the point of the matter is that how much ever you feel for a person or "love" sumone or sumthing , it's always gonna bite back.. Sumday ull always regret .. atleast i do from my experience .. so u let things happen in their own time .. some people seek refuge in the existence of god ..for other it might be material things like beer .
but happiness is a state of mind that's dwindling as time goes

it's like what the coorporates follow - customer delight . hell everyone's satisfied man .. i wanna be delighted and then enthralled and then elated and before u know it ure dead trying to get through the phases. At some point of time u gotta stop and say
" Id rather piss on the other side where the grass is greener and come back and watch the other dude sit on it ( while im sipping on beer) ..
i aint stressing on the beer da .. the point is that all we tend to see are the better sides of things .. if ever u were to see the bad , u'd rather be where u are than where the more "successful" dude is
Marriage ? Here comes the bride ; ta ta ta ta
ta ta ta ta . wassup machan ..
sandy

random_rambler said...

lol..someone said save your life from cribbing..lol.whats rong with cribbing..the reason i crib is that it makes me happy :) im a happy cribber.. and i am happy as i am.. ofcourse there are times when im sad.. but ther price of joy is tears... life would be like a sine curve.. only that.. when you are looking back.. dont just look at the troughs... look at the crests as well.. the troughs make the crests and the crests the troughs..im happy with the crests and the troughs... its perfect as it is...any other way would be imperfect :)... maybe im in a crest rite now... but when im in a low.. i can look back and think.. i was once in this crest..and the trough just means that there are crests to come just as there were crests before :)

random_rambler said...

i hope i dont die in a low tho :| i want the straight line of my ecg at a high point.. but then it wouldnt really matter :) ..ah pointless thought.. just as everything might be pointless as well..but that doesnt prevent me from posting ha ha.... but nice post btw